I might look alright as I smile a lot
And fake a laughter and pretend everything is fine,
But deep down, I’m hurting everyday.
I’m hurting when you take me for granted,
I’m hurting when you bail on me,
I’m hurting when it’s only me who cares,
I’m hurting when I wish you’d care, but you don’t.
Every night my mind hosts a storm,
And I overthink about every little thing you did,
I try to read into your signs,
To find fragments of hope,
And my heart is desperate for clarity,
While my brain is too busy doubting,
And thinking about the people you’d probably be hanging out with instead.
Maybe your happiness doesn’t lie with me,
And maybe you’d be better off without me,
And I’m a fool that I keep on hoping,
But I can’t give up on you yet,
I’ll choose to hurt in silence instead,
For a while.
– Grey
