Thinking hard, trying to get ur attention, trying to make u feel at ease,
Trying to make u understand, trying to show u that we can,
Trying to impress you, trying to give u love,
Trying and trying and tired. But I feel like I’ve tried enough.
But if persevering is right, and stopping is giving up,
And I should probably keep it up, if I wanna win your love,
But I feel like it’s not a fair fight,
And my self esteem can’t seem to bear the hurt.
I haven’t yet made my mind,
But right now I feel like letting go of you.
As long as I keep holding onto you, and unless you show me the light,
Unless u bother to take my hand and guide me,
Unless you feel the need to care about me and lead us,
Unless then, I will still be in this dark uncertainty.
I’m so uneasy around darkness.
Right now, I feel like letting go, I feel like forgetting everything,
Expectations only hurt and I feel like closing myself inside my shell,
With little interactions and disappointment to my soul from the outer world.
I’m tired of the hurt.
GREY
